I'm so friggen spoiled!
Feb. 8th, 2007 01:33 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Okay, so I get a letter from the place that accepted me, telling me that all of the stuff they will be paying for me amounts to $145,000.
And instead of going "Wah-HEY, I don't even know what that kind of cash looks like!" I think "Oh poo, I'll have to teach 20 hours a week for it."
What the hell is wrong with me?
Why is it that when I get my heart's desire, my heart moves on to something even more unattainable before I even have enough time to celebrate?
Other people would kill to be in the position I am in. Heck, last week, I would have killed to be in the position I am in now. Someone from a family like mine should never have had an opportunity like this.
I am excited. I *AM* excited.
I am so pissed off with myself for not appreciating this more.
And instead of going "Wah-HEY, I don't even know what that kind of cash looks like!" I think "Oh poo, I'll have to teach 20 hours a week for it."
What the hell is wrong with me?
Why is it that when I get my heart's desire, my heart moves on to something even more unattainable before I even have enough time to celebrate?
Other people would kill to be in the position I am in. Heck, last week, I would have killed to be in the position I am in now. Someone from a family like mine should never have had an opportunity like this.
I am excited. I *AM* excited.
I am so pissed off with myself for not appreciating this more.
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Date: 2007-02-08 01:58 am (UTC)That's about 8 hours a week, which is really nothing in the scheme of things (Particularly when you consider that in my program, the TA responsibilities take the place of a third class).
Now, the weeks when they turn things in? Yeah, that'll put you at 20 or more. but that's not all the time.
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Date: 2007-02-08 02:06 am (UTC)I'm afraid I'll burst out laughing with a bunch of 17-year-old's eyes on me, thinking that I'm all knowing and will have the answers they need to graduate.
Ah, but for the days I was that naive!
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Date: 2007-02-08 02:10 am (UTC)Also, I don't know about other programs, but I'm guessing this will ring true for many programs - we aren't guaranteed TA positions for courses in our field. I lucked out this semester, but I've got a friend who TA'd a holocaust course (and he does American 20th century history). So, in a case like that, you may know NOTHING, aside from the reading you do for the course.
Oh yeah: also expect that 20 hours to include the time you spend reading for the course. :)
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Date: 2007-02-08 02:15 am (UTC)20 hours of *actual* teaching, plus preparation for those 20 hours sounds like hell.
It definitley will make all the difference.
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Date: 2007-02-08 02:24 am (UTC)