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dreadpirateange ([personal profile] dreadpirateange) wrote2007-02-08 01:33 am

I'm so friggen spoiled!

Okay, so I get a letter from the place that accepted me, telling me that all of the stuff they will be paying for me amounts to $145,000.

And instead of going "Wah-HEY, I don't even know what that kind of cash looks like!" I think "Oh poo, I'll have to teach 20 hours a week for it."

What the hell is wrong with me?

Why is it that when I get my heart's desire, my heart moves on to something even more unattainable before I even have enough time to celebrate?

Other people would kill to be in the position I am in. Heck, last week, I would have killed to be in the position I am in now. Someone from a family like mine should never have had an opportunity like this.

I am excited. I *AM* excited.

I am so pissed off with myself for not appreciating this more.

[identity profile] dreadpirateange.livejournal.com 2007-02-09 03:45 am (UTC)(link)
Yes, I think it is an anti-climax. Particularly becuase at this p oint in my life, the 4 big things that were bothering me for around 7 months now have been resolved. I have no one left to fight. (Don't you worry, I'll take on another project or five.)